Today we ended work early and the kids got today and tomorrow off due to Hurricane Sandy. I have been praying that this storm will go easy on everyone in its path. So far we have power and only one branch fell on the house so far.
In two weeks I will undergo my final breast reconstruction procedure - my tattoos. My scars have healed extremely well and the protrusions (constructed nipples) are in pretty good shape. The left side is much flatter than the right - but when I look in the mirror they look even and normal. Once I get the new "aerolas" I will be almost back to normal again.
In my right breast I still get phantom feelings every so often and sometimes get shooting pains - but they aren't bothersome.
My only real issue now is trying to get rid of my extra weight. I need to lose about 50 pounds and am getting nowhere. I exercise and diet - but no progress. I am doing Atkins but am pretty sure that I am also finding lack of female hormone balance and age. I keep trying and will get there one day. I can do pushups and a lot of heavy lifting - so I have not lost any function in my chest or arms - and feel extremely fortunate.
I will try to write an entry once my last procedure is done. I also go to my new oncologist next month to get a checkup and bloodwork and also have a bone density test that my primary care physician wants me to take due to being post-menapausal. I will do that later next month or early December. I don't want to do everything at once.
It's been over one year since my initial surgery and I am still cancer free! God is great! He has gotten me through all this - spiritually, physically and emotionally. I am so very blessed.
God bless all those who are fighting this disease. And God bless those dealing with this weather. And God, please allow the elections to go well and for the man you want as our President to win!
Love to all!
Kelly
Monday, October 29, 2012
Friday, July 20, 2012
Part 3 of reconstruction completed today
Finally got to part three of my reconstruction today! It was absolutely a wonderful experience. God was there with me through the whole thing. The doctor was wonderful as were his assistants. The nurse even called me at home today to check on me. God gets the credit for all this - for allowing me to be here to tell this story, to putting the right doctors in my path, it's just a blessing.
I go back on Monday to be checked and hopefully soon can take a shower. I took one today so I'm good until tomorrow. Will just use the sink for my hair and do sponge baths until the doctor gives me the green light.
Had a great ride yesterday with Winnie and Diane. We started our ride in the wake of an incoming thunderstorm. We sang "For Those Tears I Died" - in 3 part harmony. We sounded great. We got a bit further but the lightening started to roll in so we turned around and headed for the church at the other end of the road. We got about half way and it started to rain. We galloped back to the barn and dismounted. I was so thankful that I got my ride and that my friends were willing to ride even with a looming storm threat. God is good to me.
Jim has been great through all of this with me. He's always there for me. God has blessed me across the board with family and friends who love and keep me lifted up.
I'll keep posting until my next procedure which is my tattoos. I think that will be fun - weird to think that - but have never thought in a million years I would ever get a tattoo. What a hoot!
Love ya!
Kelly
I go back on Monday to be checked and hopefully soon can take a shower. I took one today so I'm good until tomorrow. Will just use the sink for my hair and do sponge baths until the doctor gives me the green light.
Had a great ride yesterday with Winnie and Diane. We started our ride in the wake of an incoming thunderstorm. We sang "For Those Tears I Died" - in 3 part harmony. We sounded great. We got a bit further but the lightening started to roll in so we turned around and headed for the church at the other end of the road. We got about half way and it started to rain. We galloped back to the barn and dismounted. I was so thankful that I got my ride and that my friends were willing to ride even with a looming storm threat. God is good to me.
Jim has been great through all of this with me. He's always there for me. God has blessed me across the board with family and friends who love and keep me lifted up.
I'll keep posting until my next procedure which is my tattoos. I think that will be fun - weird to think that - but have never thought in a million years I would ever get a tattoo. What a hoot!
Love ya!
Kelly
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Day after 2nd Surgery - All is fine
I made it through! And no tubes! I have only a little pain - took a few narcotic pain killers. After 4:00 AM this morning I've only had two Tylenol. I may take a pill before bed, but that will probably be the last of it.
This surgery I came out a bit nauseous and had a scratch in the roof of my mouth where the breathing tube nicked it. Today my throat is a little horse and I have a bit of water in my ears, which is quickly dissipating. That is the worst of it. I have to wear bandages and a surgical bra until Wednesday and then I should be good to go from there. No more hospitals for a long while!
I am able to walk fine, feed my animals, make meals, etc. with no problem. I am taking it easy with lifting and raising my arms over my head. I have my underarms back to regular shape and I don't have the pressure on my ribcage anymore and my breasts aren't hard, but more natural feeling. I only feel a bit of pain where the new scars on the sides of my breasts are. I'm sure getting the bandages off will feel even more freeing.
Not much else to say. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. I am truly blessed. And this journey is almost at it's end.
God's Blessings to all!
TTFN,
Kelly
This surgery I came out a bit nauseous and had a scratch in the roof of my mouth where the breathing tube nicked it. Today my throat is a little horse and I have a bit of water in my ears, which is quickly dissipating. That is the worst of it. I have to wear bandages and a surgical bra until Wednesday and then I should be good to go from there. No more hospitals for a long while!
I am able to walk fine, feed my animals, make meals, etc. with no problem. I am taking it easy with lifting and raising my arms over my head. I have my underarms back to regular shape and I don't have the pressure on my ribcage anymore and my breasts aren't hard, but more natural feeling. I only feel a bit of pain where the new scars on the sides of my breasts are. I'm sure getting the bandages off will feel even more freeing.
Not much else to say. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. I am truly blessed. And this journey is almost at it's end.
God's Blessings to all!
TTFN,
Kelly
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Second surgery - breast reconstruction
It's been awhile since I last posted. I am doing well and in two days will have my second surgery behind me. I am a bit nervous about this surgery.
I had a car accident last Friday - one week before this upcoming surgery. Weird thing - I had a car accident one week before my last surgery. This time it was my fault. Thank God no one was hurt. It was a weird experience. I am now always second guessing each driving move I make. I think I just need to relax and let God take control. I am really stressed out about this surgery. I worry about the anesthesia, the pain when I wake up, the pain over the next week. I keep praying about my circumstances and am trying to hand them all over to God. I need to glance at my circumstances and stare at Jesus.
I did this blog to help others understand what I went through and how I got through it. I felt God call me to do this. I just hope at least one person reads it and that it blesses them in some good way. I don't seem to have as many friends this go round - but that may be my fault. I have a tendency to push people away when I get worried about things and try to take complete control. I know there are people out there praying for me. My friend Judie, who has been through this journey more times than me, totally gets me and prays for me all the time. She has truly been a blessing.
I do mourn my breasts. I am not second guessing my decision to have them removed. I just miss my body parts. I am very thankful that I caught the cancer early and that I don't have to do chemo. I am happy to be alive. I think it is okay to mourn my breasts as long as I don't let it consume me, which it hasn't so far. I am slowly getting used to them being gone. I still don't like to look at myself in the mirror. I have two big scars across my chest. The doctor did a nice job - but I still gasp when I see myself. Time will heal this and once the nipples are added my chest will look more normal. If I was 20 years older - I would not have had the reconstruction. It has been very uncomfortable. My left shoulder always hurts when I lift weights or just lift my arm out to my side. It doesn't stop me from doing anything. I am even doing push ups. It is just a nuisance. I am pretty sure it is a result of the lymph nodes that were removed from my armpit. I don't have swelling or anything - just the pain - which is about a 1 or 2 out of 10. I have been working out daily - so I hope to eventually get rid of the pain completely.
I have decided to get silicone breast implants. The expanders are filled with saline and they are really hard. I undestand that the silicone implants feel more like natural breasts. There is a risk of the silicone leaking into my chest - but I will try it. If I need to have them replaced due to rupture within the next couple of years, I will go with saline and deal with it. I am hoping and praying that I won't have to replace these implants for a very long time. But at some point they will either have to be replaced or just removed. I will deal with that when I need to..
I will update this blog after the surgery. I'm not sure how I'll feel after the surgery on Friday. It is outpatient and I will be back home by that evening. I am told that I may have tubes this time but may not depending on how well the doctor feels I will heal. I will have to take antibiotics and narcotic pain killers for a few days. I am not looking forward to the side affects, but hopefully I won't need the pain killers for long. I am hoping to return to work maybe mid week next week. Jim is going to take the week off to take care of me, the kids and the house. He'll like the time off from work, but it will not be a vacation for him.
For my husband, Jim, and my kids J.J. and Jessica - I love you. You are my world. I am so glad that I have you in my life. Hugs and kisses to you all! And blessings to all my family and friends. You all mean so much to me.
I will do my best to rest as I get through this stage of my journey. It's great to be alive. Thanks God for my life! God Bless!
TTFN,
Kelly
I had a car accident last Friday - one week before this upcoming surgery. Weird thing - I had a car accident one week before my last surgery. This time it was my fault. Thank God no one was hurt. It was a weird experience. I am now always second guessing each driving move I make. I think I just need to relax and let God take control. I am really stressed out about this surgery. I worry about the anesthesia, the pain when I wake up, the pain over the next week. I keep praying about my circumstances and am trying to hand them all over to God. I need to glance at my circumstances and stare at Jesus.
I did this blog to help others understand what I went through and how I got through it. I felt God call me to do this. I just hope at least one person reads it and that it blesses them in some good way. I don't seem to have as many friends this go round - but that may be my fault. I have a tendency to push people away when I get worried about things and try to take complete control. I know there are people out there praying for me. My friend Judie, who has been through this journey more times than me, totally gets me and prays for me all the time. She has truly been a blessing.
I do mourn my breasts. I am not second guessing my decision to have them removed. I just miss my body parts. I am very thankful that I caught the cancer early and that I don't have to do chemo. I am happy to be alive. I think it is okay to mourn my breasts as long as I don't let it consume me, which it hasn't so far. I am slowly getting used to them being gone. I still don't like to look at myself in the mirror. I have two big scars across my chest. The doctor did a nice job - but I still gasp when I see myself. Time will heal this and once the nipples are added my chest will look more normal. If I was 20 years older - I would not have had the reconstruction. It has been very uncomfortable. My left shoulder always hurts when I lift weights or just lift my arm out to my side. It doesn't stop me from doing anything. I am even doing push ups. It is just a nuisance. I am pretty sure it is a result of the lymph nodes that were removed from my armpit. I don't have swelling or anything - just the pain - which is about a 1 or 2 out of 10. I have been working out daily - so I hope to eventually get rid of the pain completely.
I have decided to get silicone breast implants. The expanders are filled with saline and they are really hard. I undestand that the silicone implants feel more like natural breasts. There is a risk of the silicone leaking into my chest - but I will try it. If I need to have them replaced due to rupture within the next couple of years, I will go with saline and deal with it. I am hoping and praying that I won't have to replace these implants for a very long time. But at some point they will either have to be replaced or just removed. I will deal with that when I need to..
I will update this blog after the surgery. I'm not sure how I'll feel after the surgery on Friday. It is outpatient and I will be back home by that evening. I am told that I may have tubes this time but may not depending on how well the doctor feels I will heal. I will have to take antibiotics and narcotic pain killers for a few days. I am not looking forward to the side affects, but hopefully I won't need the pain killers for long. I am hoping to return to work maybe mid week next week. Jim is going to take the week off to take care of me, the kids and the house. He'll like the time off from work, but it will not be a vacation for him.
For my husband, Jim, and my kids J.J. and Jessica - I love you. You are my world. I am so glad that I have you in my life. Hugs and kisses to you all! And blessings to all my family and friends. You all mean so much to me.
I will do my best to rest as I get through this stage of my journey. It's great to be alive. Thanks God for my life! God Bless!
TTFN,
Kelly
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