Another Posting

During this journey, there will be up days and down days. Life will happen no matter if I am sick or well. And things seem to happen in my life in bunches instead of one at a time - I'm sure most people find this to be the case with their life's journey.

I am so caught up in my worries about what I am going through, that I forget that those that are with me on this journey are also affected. I have to be very careful to tread lightly on those that care about me so that I don't add insult to injury. I am trying to keep a positive attitude but there are times when I just get touchy or mean and am not my normal self. And then there are times when I am my normal self - and that isn't always a good thing. Smile :-)

I find I am making many more mistakes than I usually do. I am much more forgetful than I have been and feel like I am, at times, a total air head. My concentration seems to be not as easily kept. I wish I could stop thinking about the upcoming surgery. It is only the last two nights that I have gotten a good night's sleep. And I think that is only because I prayed to God to take over so that I could rest. Which worked!

I am exercising about three times a week. I feel like I'm in the best shape of my life. I've been dieting since mid-may and have dropped 30 pounds (on purpose). And in the midst of life and being in great health comes breast cancer - sneaking up on my from nowhere like a thief in the night. I am not happy about it, but there is nothing to do but either whine and cry and ask "Why Me" or just accept it as a temporary hiccup in my life's path and get through it with a postive attitude and a heavy reliance on God to get me through it. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" - Phillipians 4:13

It is not because of God that I am sick - there is no blame to be made here. I am not angry at anyone, just the cancer itself. And I will fight it with all that I have and all that God gives me until I am back to my healthy self. I will be fine. I will survive. I will get passed this part of my journey and live to tell the tale! God please grant me the patience I need with others and especially with myself.